cos His mercies are new every morning

2007-02-25T00:23:00.000+11:00

so the week is nearly over! next week will be the last week of official slacking - then school starts for real on the 5th of march. MARCH. sheesh. why in the world did they make us come on the 15th of FEBRUARY for. ah well. not to say that it's been a total waste though.. it's been pretty fun (: just slowly getting better - i mean where else can you go but up when you hit rock bottom. not that i hit rock bottom but ahh you get what i mean.

so mummy's been gone since wed - feels like much longer though. been staying in palmerston since monday night; weather's growing colder! yeahhh! (: toady it rained haha thank God it stopped after awhile. so anywayy here are some pics!

this is when mummy was still around - we visited some houses that were SO PRETTYYY(: they had the woody smell and everything! see see

that's one of the bedrooms - there's a like bbqing place outside and a nice round table for chillaxing(: the bedroom itself is really relaxing and prettyyy yeah? :D

oh this is cool! it's like a little outhouse kind of thing - haha can imagine what it could be used for ;D hehe

and these are pics of Carlton Gardens (: awesome place to just chill out with a book.. further up there are swings! the grass is really nice to just sit on and spend a lazy afternoon.. haha i feel like im doing some sort of advertisement. ahaha

check out this ginormous plate of spaghetti carbonara - it's actually a hunk of pasta and cheese. haha amazing how ONE aussie can finish this right. this was shared among 3 asian adults haha

that's body boarding on cny! haha portsea beach, and im one of the small figures there, lydia nigel shiyou and me, rock pools(so cool right?)!

this is after mummy left - ytd we had an excursion to Ashcombe Maze. pretty cool; the mazes are fun and confusing. was being sociable with yihui that day - our group gor first! hahaha. anywayy.. haha yeah lovely scenery that place (:

at mornington beach, quite near portsea! that's me and justine and the sailboats - one of their names are 'hasta la vista' hahaha. and MG girls who are in buninyong! haha yes that's the group names. nice view(:

today was the our trip to Warook Cattle Farm! we made our own bread - cant rmb what it's called but you can see it on davinya and my sticks; yes sticks! we had to flour our stick up, then stick the dough onto it and like roast it over a campfire. haha good stuff, but we came back smelling really burnt. haha after that the activities began! fed goats, cows(kelly i was the first to milk the cow hehe!), kangaroos, watched sheep herding and shearing and yeah cool farm stuff(: haha mei the geese are for you! quite harmless :D

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yeap! so it's pretty much alright(:

oh we had worship tonight.. hopefully there'll be more to come and by faith the numbers will increase! haha(:

it was really a good time.. and then afterwards, being mg girls we did what we do best - we chillaxed in my room. heh. funn(: they almost wanted to bunk in but decided not to cos they'd have to sleep on the floor haha. anyway i wanna go cook cup noodles now im hungry. heh

later

2007-03-01T13:06:00.000+11:00

helloooo(:

it's still really relaxed now - i think the first term will pretty much be like that :D hehe just the way i like it! been having intro lects though so still gotta wake up for school.. omgosh math 1 is seriously boring. we've learnt everything before in sec school so we're only learning new stuff in the 4th term. for the first lesson i was so bored and sleepy, plus i didnt bring my notes, so i decided to listen to my ipod. haha i've become quite good at hiding it. but then it was so troublesome i settled for reading "My Sister's Keeper" instead - jodie picoult is such a prolific writer. the issues she touches on are really.. very grey.
anyway! oh im looking forward to psych and lit lessons! after the lit taining we've had in mg, the first term's gonna be quite enjoyable! (: but term2's a diff story.. psych is darn fun - i cant wait to start learning proper! my teacher's a clinical psychologist as well as a research psychologist(she's doing anorexia and eating disorders - i think if i had to i'd choose suicide or depression) and she studied for freaking 15years! but she has a doctorade but still wowwww.

taking it easy everyday is something quite different from the hustle bustle of singapore - life
here is indeed rather slow-paced, but it's fine (: i like just spending lazy afternoons reading or going to the park in the evenings.. plus, i've bought quite a number of dvds alr, & there're ppl all around, so not really much time to be bored!

okay anyway here are some pics of my room now here! my webcam cant work ): ytd i tried skyping with my sis but my stupid comp kept restarting by itself after 5mins sheeeesh.

this is what you see when you first walk in thru the door - my bed & bedside table, and there's the window next to it

pic1 is if you turn right - it's my study area and the other part of the window

*li see your pres by my window? ;)

pic2 is if you turn left - my walk in closet, BEANBAG(!! :D), adjoining toilet door & shelf

that's my lovely table and shelf next to my table (from pic1 above) ((:

*li mu and dee see the file? im gonna start using soon :D

*char i bought 'The Fray' cd!

*i love my board((:

HAHA EL NINO. ;)

this is a very strange phrase. it's the name of a song, the name of an atmospheric occurance, the name of a bar(i think).

MG girls dinner! (: we had some silly 'skills and expectations of studying in australia' talk on monday and after that we walked around lygon being retarded and at FIVETHIRTY sher keeps saying she is very hungry, so dinner at Toto's! fun(: ahhahaha charis smacked a handful of pepper into audrey's nose so throughout the entire dinner poor audrey kept stuffing wet pieces of tissue up her nose to soothe it HAHA. after dinner had ice cream along lygon - there're like 5936128047 ice cream shops along lygon! then a few of us went to carlton gardens to hang out and enjoy the night air(: the picture's blurry cos it was about 8 and i didnt wanna put night mode cos then can see the sunlight behind among the trees(:

beautiful scenery (: at a basketball court at doncaster east where lydia claudia nigel and i were blading - they're so adorable. uncle yc and aunty sharon invited me over for dinner cos they had my beanbag for me! so nice(: haha she cooked hainanese chicken rice, singapore style ;) hehe. blading in the night is really nice. sun doesnt set till about 830 or 9 and it's really nice and cool, yeahhh(:

now random pictures...

HAHAHA MURIEL'S WEDDING. :D

hehe DEBBIE FASHION DOLL :D

hahaha emo/angsty emily strange.. eh char? hehe

TIGER LILY CAFE - hehe :D

okay gotta run! laundry calls!

later (:

2007-03-07T19:22:00.000+11:00

This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory?

This may never start
I'll tear us apart
Can I be your enemy
Losing half a year
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything

This may never start
Tearin' out my heart
I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings disappear
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagined
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same

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school has officially started

it's quite draining i have no idea why

like today after class i came back and slept for 2h but i think that's still not enough

my nose is so stuffed and i feel gross - think i may be falling sick

or could be that every freaking person here smokes

okay not everyone, but enough to annoy me and irritate my nose

but anywayy

im really enjoying psych - my teacher's the coolest! but it's not as easy as it looks, quite a bit of reading up to do. but cant compare to the science students i suppose - they're so poor thing.. thank God i dont do any science anymore heh.

surprisingly im not enjoying maths that much. there's no structure! which makes it tough to learn and there are all sorts of weird new formulas that i never knew existed. plus my tutorial class is.. bleh. with the exception of audrey. thank goodness

lit's alright, i heard we might be doing kubla khan AHH. haha shit just cant seem to run away from that poem.

hoi hasnt really started much with anything yet, but i just realised how much it is lke TOK or KI. so pretty cool.

econs is pretty interesting - my teacher taught me before in summer school so i dont find her accent that intimidating(she's indian), oh haha and she's quite funny

my EAP(english for academic purposes) teacher's so.. eccentric. haha she has a stuffed owl who she introduces as her best, one and only friend. hahaha. oh dear.

the week seems to be crawling by..

aiya. at least it's all down hill from here!

will be trying out planetshaker's cell tmr after my grand plans to study at lygon's starbucks which is super nice(: yay okay not too bad! haha

hope you guys are okay and jae was alright.. take care yeah(:

see you all soon!

oh haha here are some random pics :D

at koko blacks! the ice chocolate is THE BEST. instead of ice, the put in vanilla And chocolate ice-cream along with the chocolate milk, and i think there's fudge also :D and our chocolate platter - truffles, mousse, ice cream, cookie, muffin, souffle (all choc based!) and johnny's triple scoop ice cream delight thingy haha

my breakfast on sunday! banana nutella crepe and cappucino :D darn sweet. haha

they have a huge periodic table on the wall in the chem building. haha thought it was interesting.

yeap that's about it!

love you guys - have fun wherever and whatever(:

2007-03-12T21:03:00.000+11:00

that is sarah! and it was her birthday last saturday! so we waited till mn friday night and surprised her! haha fun (: hope you had a fun night sarah:D

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH! (:

and that was wakeboarding on the saturday :D

ahh it was so super awesome!

went with reina who like went crazy. honestly.

quote "u hav no idea how hyper she was. she's been doing muted screaming when we were on our way there in the tram, it like she couldn't calm herself down. haha. once we reached the location, she's like a kid in a lollies shop."

hahahaha true story. anyway!

it was darn cooooolll!

they were doing all sorts of awesome tricks like air rallies and scarecrows and whirlies and all thattt! ahh so cool okay..

yeah so obviously i was clueless and like 'what's that' and such a noob - thank goodness for reina! she can do jumps! and butter..sth! haha i cant rmb the names. but so cool man. i want to learn. seriously. ahhhh!

anyway.. been sick with fever on and off for like. 5 days. so sucky. and annoying. i hate being sick! and over here you cant go to the doc unless you have continuous fever for like 2 days then by the time it was my third day it was the weekend. and today was labour day. so couldnt go! so only going tmrrrr! ljnfvlanalrugifhivuhalfjvnas. bleh. and there's this freaking swelling on my neck.

buttt of course there's always a silver lining.. in a way.. haha

so..

thank you

shiyou

for staying over and swabbing me with cold towels that night when my temp shot up and for being such a mom sometimes. haha (: for making me mac and cheese in the morning and offering to buy back lunch for me! for constantly checking up on me and my fluctuating temp(: for being such an awesome friend.

yihui audrey charis sher melchu minghuei reina and other palmerston ppl

for being so concerned and always checking up (: OH and for the yummy dinner on sunday! haha sorry i only provided drinks la. but i might burn the kitchen down otherwise.. which almost happened.. haha KIDDING. and for the brownies! and just being so nice (:

yeahh.. okay now i gtg bathe heh

later(:

2007-06-12T19:26:00.000+10:00

haha my last post said bum time.. now it's EXAM TIME!
groan.. how annoying - to get home we always have to finish exams first. okay nvm we will get thru!

so Beautiful Woman just ended - AWESOME TIME. (:
nothing is impossible for You!

haha okay anyway, here are (finally) some pics! :D

haha okay blogger sucks i have no idea how to arrange the stupid pictures. anyway so the first 5 pics are at Beautiful Woman! with my fantastic urban life :D

6th one is what we cooked! yes, cooked! haha PANCAKES!! yumyum :D

7th is my dear minghuei -SLEEPING DURING LIT LECTURE HAHA. and the 8th is minghuei's ambition hahahaha. oh and sher's too haha

and the 9th is when my family came over to melbourne ((:

okay lastly, this picture is an example of a subliminal message on a bottle of perfume - go check it out and see if you guys can spot the subliminal message :

haha okie dokie. my urban life's here gtg! :D

later!

2008-04-16T16:02:00.003+10:00

the view that my eyes are getting most these days:

nvm after this friday i wont have essays for 2weeks! :D

Jesus, i know You'll get me through this.
what's 3000words when You wrote the whole bible. haha (:

cos i know my God saved the day
and i know His word never fails
and i know my God made a way for me
it's gonna be alright!

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to proper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

AMEN!

<3

2008-04-23T01:58:00.003+10:00

when You stand

tall trees and mountains bow

when You speak

the fiercest of oceans is stilled

and i see

sinners seek devotion

the lost become chosen

and i fall to my knees

i will take up my cross and follow

Lord where You lead me

i will take up my cross and follow

wherever You go

dear you,

i really wish i could be there as you go through this time of your life as you face so much. but i know God has a purpose, me being 6000miles away from you, even though i dont know what now.. but im glad you know i am always here. you have grown so much and words will never express how proud i am of you. not because of what you've done or your accomplishments, even though i am super happy for you because of them! but because of who you are. your gentle spirit, your giving nature, the love that you have and are willing to share. i know you are so anointed and God just has an awesome plan for you. keep going to Him in everything, and rmb that you never have to do this on your own. i love you so much. now and always.

over all the earth, You reign on high

every mountain stream, every sunset sky

but my one request, Lord my only aim

is that You reign in me again

i went to watch the sunset on friday at st kilda's! (: it was beautiful. i realise, you never really see it properly - until you Really go notice it. the changing shades of the sky, the sinking sun, the reflections on the water. amazing. God is so intricate.

in other news,
JAKE HAS CONVERTED WAHAHA.

jake says:
i show you nice shoes i wanna buy
we will be Your hands, we will be Your feet says:
HAHAHAHA that's totally the aussie-guy kind of shoe!!
we will be Your hands, we will be Your feet says:
you totally like aussieland admit it!
we will be Your hands, we will be Your feet says:
hahaha now you have to stop badmouthing melb cos you totally love the style hahaha
jake says:
isit are you serious
jake says:
gosh
jake says:
haha okay fine, melb is cool

we will be Your hands, we will be Your feet says:
i told you melb ppl have good taste.
jake says:
haha yesyesyes
jake says:
i give in

AHHAHAHA. sucked in!! :D

oh wow it's 230 haha okay i better get some sleep heh

love you guys (:

<3

2008-05-11T03:10:00.003+10:00

sarahannek says:
ITS MOTHERS DAY
sarahannek says:
HAPPY MOATHERS DAY WOMAN
sarahannek says:
hahahaha
sarahannek says:
give birthy
sarahannek says:
QUICK
love broke through the darkness & lifted me; and i know, You'll never let me go. says:
YEAH HAPPY MUM DAY!
love broke through the darkness & lifted me; and i know, You'll never let me go. says:
haha you then.
sarahannek says:
i want
sarahannek says:
haha
sarahannek says:
but must find manman

HAHAHA SANNEKHOO!!! you are the most retarded/funny/adorable neighbour ever! hahahha it's 312 in the morning and im having fun conversations :D

in other news...
HUANG SHIYOU AND DIANE LEOW YOU ARE OFFICIALLY 18!!!
i hope both of you had a gooood weekend! :D
love you both (:

and alsooo..

i <3 my family (:

(and i want all the photos from camp/birthdays/random photos/camwhoring around campus please!!! :D)

p.s. and i didnt know that 'xoxo' meant hugs and kisses - i cant rmb whether x is hug and o is kiss, but well that's quite cool!

so

xoxo!
<3 (:

2008-05-26T23:03:00.007+10:00

HIIIIIIII (:

i actually wanted to this quite awhile ago (like when i first finished all the essays and what not), but got too caught up heh so here it is now:

THANKS EVERYONE WHO WAS SO AWESOMELY SUPPORTIVE AND ENCOURAGING (: i really really appreciate all of you, and all the little things you guys did kept me sane and helped me survive (:

you guys know who you are (: and for the many that i dont have photos with/of, thank you as well(:
love all of you so much!

anywayyyy

so last week was my break week where i totally just didnt study or do assignment. haha it felt weird, but great :D
omgosh i shopped so much it was nuts. haha im officially broke. no more shopping man.

but i love all my new stuff!
ESPECIALLY MY CONVERSE WOOHOO

haha okay moving along

nathan: haylie, im not trying to shut you out okay; i just dont understand enough to let you in yet
haylie: whatever it is, we're gonna get through it together. im right here nathan. im not going anywhere

i heart OTH ((:

finished watching the entire season4 in like 4days - it's the besttttt.
cant believe they're my age though.. crazyy

on another note,

COME CELEBRATE!

this friday, MCCC (next to Melbourne Central)!

it's gonna be HEAPS of FUN! (:

be there, or be square!!

:D

and with that, im off!

(:

<3

p.s.
Christina says:
aww your essay is so emo it mde me tear

well, it's the truth nana and i do miss you lots (: love you.

2008-07-15T18:08:00.006+10:00

oh wow it's almost been a month since i last updated!
haha okay sorry i know i really suck at this.

我把你緊緊擁入壞裡
捧你在我手心

as you can tell, im into chinese songs now! :D
haha okay not really, just That chinese song. thanks to weiying haha

well 1 semester's flown by just like that! exams have come and gone, results are out, i've gone to the sunshine state then back to melb, and now back in s'pore!
haha busy busy

the flight back was good! i had 2 seats all to myself cos the plane was pretty empty (the advantages of flying back at a random time!), and believe it or not - i didnt watch a single movie! only 2 shows; i've discovered how those 7h can be spent differently

gold coast was absolutely sweet as, for sure!
sea world
movie world
wet n wild
surfer's paradise
it was the company that totally made it awesome beyond awesome (:

<3

today's only the first day in s'pore, and i think i've eaten like 5 meals omg. if im not careful, i think i might become a ball. haha

and i've tried not to let anyone in until now
misunderstandings are an easy way out
and i've been feeling all this pressure just to figure it out
and i know, dont know, yeah i know, dont know

thank You Jesus(:
where would we be without You Jesus
where would we be without You Lord

2008-12-02T00:56:00.002+11:00

IT'S THE HOLS!

so, exams are overrr and i am now fancy free! (:
and yes, i've been playing like anything hehe :D

ah, the freedom to be free!

haha i love it - like now, im watching FRIENDS, and chatting, facebooking! the beauty of multi-tasking.
my family is currently holidaying somwhere in m'sia. these hols are gonna be packed - my mum just gave me my schedule for the rest of dec when i get back to sg. haha evidently, my dec is gonna be devoted for family time! cool beans (: which actually works out alright cos my siblings start in jan, whereas all the jc ppl have a massively long 8month break.

aiyo, i miss my family la

"how come u coming back so late? :("
the one sentence that can make me reconsider changing flight plans, and rescheduling my entire holiday plans

"mummy is now making me wash my face with the cream thingy, she says u and er jie do not, haha"
"like having the time of her life buying all this props that she can use to teach in church" (telling me how my parents' Israel holiday is going)

hehe my siblings are adorable (:

one she makes me feel not

too much like anything but

three times more than i've ever felt before

1am and im

too sucked in cos it's

three days later i cant stop thinking about you

anyway, it's rather late and i am sleepy
im gonna crash now!

<3

2008-11-25T13:02:00.003+11:00

so it's 3 down 1 to go!

& i am so over of studying. haha thank God for the weekend, really
give me a break from the 4 walls of Frank Tate (albeit interesting, cooped up everyday in the same building is bound to turn anyone slightly bored)

so anyway i am once again at 'the Tate', as we have dubbed it, and tired of typing about samples, observational test and randomised controlled trials. so i shall entertain the tag of the meme on jon's blog -

my top 5 favourite foods
1) home-cooked food!! i miss your food mummy (:
2) steak/lamb that's cooked properly
3) japanese food
4) bubble tea/boost juice/nutrient water/latte
5) honey tiny teddies/subway cookies

10 things i love doing
1) chilling with God
2) hanging out with friends/family
3) guitar/drums/keys/jam session, figuring out new songs
4) movies!
5) walking around (melbourne) with absolutely nowhere to go and nothing to do (with my ipod in my ears)
6) lazy days and waking up late
7) discovering cool, quaint cafes
8) long drives
9) checking out bands/the music scene
10) chilling at the beach or on a big grassy lawn

things i love doing when im emo
- whinging to God heh He always makes me feel better
- guitar/keys/drums (drums only when im angsty/frustrated though haha)
- reading
- sleeping
- running (surprisingly heh, but only sometimes)

5 things i love doing when im happy
1) putting a nice song on and just kicking back (:
2) figuring out stuff on my guitar
3) chilling at a cafe somwhere - either with someone, or with a book
4) strolling someplace interesting, checking out the scenery/life/people
5) just being at home with my family <3>

5 things i wish to happen
1) improve in my musical skills
2) do well in BA (heh which means stop procrastinating and being lazy..)
3) be more sociable heh
4) go skiing again sometime
5) go on a family holiday SOON haha

my top 5 most addicted songs
1) better with you - five times august
2) love love love - tristan prettyman
3) i'm yours - jason mraz
4) learning to breathe - switchfoot
5) shake it - metro station (hahaha yes, currently i am addicted to this catchy semi-techno beat)

brain-racking.

now 5 people to tag - joey poey! (: and any others who wanna do it haha

alright back to studyingggg

2008-11-17T08:15:00.002+11:00

my God He made a way
my God He saved the day
forever
we will shout Your praise
this world will fade away
but Your word remains
forever, Jesus
we will shout Your praise

because You are in control

and before everything, i commit it all to You
cos it's all for You anyway
and i know You are faithful, and You hold me in Your hands

(:

bring it on, i'm ready.

2008-11-13T17:38:00.003+11:00

I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED STUDYING PSYCH.
thank You Jesus.
the past week has felt like a month!
intensive psych-ing man

okay now to attempt to start on global pol.

im gonna be mugger-extroadinaire for the next 2 weeks. oh whaddaya know, it's exactly 2 weeks till the end of my exams.

every step i take
i take in You
You are my way, Jesus
every breath i take
i breathe in You

hehe i love this song! got it from sanne :D used to be my favourite action song when i was a kiddd. in BMC children's ministry (:
sometimes, the simplest kids songs are the most faith-filled declarations

Your love has captured me

oh my God, this love, how can it be?

okay i shall stop slacking, and get off this thing to start on Human Rights!

through You, i can do anything!!

2008-11-10T00:02:00.002+11:00

now we've all grown up
gone on and moved away
nothing left to do about it
nothing i can say
to bring us back to where we were
when life was not this hard
looking back it all just seems so far
so far away

but when push comes to shove we all need to grow up in the end

i miss that town
i miss their faces
you can’t erase
you can’t replace it
i miss it now
i can’t believe it
so hard to stay
too hard to leave it

if I could relive those days
i know the one thing that would never change

You are my God
the Great I Am

You are the Rock
on which i stand

and You reign
You reign, oh Lord
You reign
You reign

cos it's just all for You <3

2008-10-27T02:54:00.007+11:00

cos this life is a beautiful one

and though i've seen it coming undone

i know most definitely

there's gonna be you

there's gonna be me

so, baby keep your head up

keep it on the up and up and know now

that you got all my

love, love, love

2008-10-25T01:31:00.005+11:00

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baby, baby, baby
when all your love is gone
who will save me from all im up against
out in this world
maybe, maybe, maybe
you'll find something that's enough to keep you
but if the bright lights dont deceive you
you should turn yourself around
and come on home

cos sometimes all it takes is one person

and just a bit of re-focussing

i rmb the first time i heard this song was when i was trying to learn it for a performance in MG - i think it was our national day performance! those were some cool times man. i reckon even though i was never outstanding academically, never really involved in any cca, and never involved in any area of leadership - it was because of all that, which made secondary(high) school life that much more interesting.

i really miss the MG days; they were such a massive part of how i became who i am today. and i always always look back in fondness at the memories that have been made. im glad that God put me there, despite my initial reluctance to attend MG. the values, the culture/atmosphere, the warm/loving/family environment that some might label as idealistic and protected have shaped me and are a big part of me even now.

a realistic-idealist.

if i had to define what sort of person i am, that'd be it. sometimes, i admit, i take on an idealistic view of the world - choosing to believe that people are inherently good. that we are all intrinsically altruistic, and that circumstances happen along the way that alter that. but i know that it's not like that all the time, my head's still firmly on my shoulders. i know that disappoints and hurts are part of life as well, and that they cant be avoided no matter what. but i reckon there's always a reason they happen, and it's up to us to choose to bounce back [of course, being Christians we have the added advantage of our Daddy God helping us (:].

i was watching FRIENDS ytd night, and there was this conversation that went on between joey and phoebe, and i thought it was intriguing! (see, FRIENDS is stimulating heh :D) -

joey: look, there's no unselfish good deed - sorry.
phoebe: yes there are! there are totally good deeds that are selfless.

...
joey: all people are selfish.
phoebe: are you calling me selfish?
joey: are you calling you.. people? yeah, sorry to burst that bubble phoebs, but selfless good deeds dont exist.

and the argument was that because people end up feeling good about themselves at the end of the good deed, it's fundamentally selfish.

BUTTTTT, i sorely beg to differ

was having this conversation with a friend today and we came to the conclusion that -

good deeds are not selfish. because the primary motivation of the person doing the good deed is not to feel good about themselves, but really for the advantage of the person they're helping. the feeling good is simply a "side-effect" (for lack of a better word).

HOWEVER we did make an interesting discovery though. let's say good deeds Are selfish and they're really done to make one feel better about oneself. then wouldnt everyone in the world be going out and doing heaps of good deeds to feel good? now, would that really be a bad thing? i dont think so! haha you'd see so many old people being helped to cross the street and adults buying lollies for kiddies

but i digress

yeah so i guess, there has to be a middle ground that exists. we cant be cynical and jaded because then there'd be no more hope, no more dreams, and love would struggle to exist. neither can we have our heads up in the clouds, cos then we'd smack our heads on reality one day and just be completely crushed.

ehh how the heck did i get into this..

haha ANYWAYYYY

im no longer with alvin's camera - not to say im not interested in photography though! just that i reckon i dont really have a flair for it.. haha sadly. i reckon it needs passion, but for me it's more of just a hobby. ah well, i'll still fiddle with one of the cameras around though! they're not in short supply anyway haha

i like photos which distort lights, like the one at the top

let me light up the sky

light it up for you

for all my rambling, at the end of the day it's about hope.

whether you're a realist, a cynic, an idealist, or still searching. we're all looking for someone to trust. someone who'll hold on to us when we feel like we cant hold on anymore, someone to take away the hurt, someone who'll love us no matter what.

and i choose to put hope in the One

who never disappoints,

who never lets me go,

who always knows what's best for me,

who knows exactly what to say and when to say it, and

who loves me more than i'll ever understand.

at the end of the day,

He's the reason that i can love, that i can hope, that there's a perpetual silver lining no matter how dark the clouds are (:

and honestly, after finding this nothing else matters but Jesus

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it's all about Jesus
it's all about the way He changed our live
it's all about Jesus
the power of His blood cant be denied

thank You for saving me (:

thank You for the love You give unconditionally, the freedom You give, and for always always being there for me.

You are all i need,

i love You!

2008-10-19T01:18:00.003+11:00

as i pray and wait upon the Lord
i know Your grace, in love i am restored
as i think of all You've done for me
the mystery of Your love

who walked upon the sea
who lived to die for me

You, Lord
You, Lord
You, Lord
You are Lord

sometimes, it feels like we've got it sorted. like we finally got it somewhat figured out. and somewhere along the way, complacency creeps in. it's almost as if we tell God "yeah, it's alright i got it"

but oh how i thank God when He gives me gentle reminders, time and again no matter how long it takes to learn the lesson, that that is simply not the case. at all.

Father, Your love, Your faithfulness, Your patience never ceases to amaze me.. each and every time i come back crying out to You - You look at me with eyes full of love, full of grace. with arms wide open, ready to embrace me to tell me that You've missed me, that Your love for me will never change, and that You will never leave me.

(this was on a friend's blog but it really spoke to me-)
Jesus, You're already my best friend. so here i am today - i want to be Your best friend too.
there is no one like You

as i look upon You i am changed
though i fail, Your faithful love remains
as i sing and worship You
i find again no words describe Your love

who watches over me
whose love has covered me

You, Lord
You, Lord
You, Lord
You are Lord

even as i realise that it's only through His grace that i am who i am today, that it's only becaue Jesus has seen me through that i am still standing today - once again everything else falls into place.

turn Your eyes upon Jesus

look full in His wonderful face

and the things of earth

will grow strangely dim

in the light of His glory and grace

i need You, God. more and more of You, every day. no more chasing things that will eventually lead to nothing - i live for You, first.

take me deeper

than i've been before

2008-10-10T21:24:00.003+11:00

this is my prayer in the desert

when all that's within me is dry

this is my prayer in my hunger and need

my God is a God who provides

this is my prayer in the fire

in weakness or trial or pain

there is a faith proved more worthy than gold

so refine me Lord through the flame

and i will bring praise

i will bring praise

no weapon formed against me shall remain

i will rejoice

i will declare

God is my victory and He is here

this is my prayer in the battle

when triumph is still on its way

i am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ

so firm on His promise i'll stand

i will bring praise

no weapon formed against me shall remain

i will rejoice

i will declare

God is my victory and He is here

all of my life

in every season

You are still God

i have a reason to sing

i have a reason to worship

this is my prayer in the harvest

when favour and providence flow

i know im filled to be emptied again

the seed i've received i will sow

Isaiah 40:29-31

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, walk and not be faint.

2008-09-30T20:03:00.003+10:00

back in sunny (hot) singapore!

currently in coffee bean with jess, using the brilliant island-wide singapore wireless! :D it's quite awesome hey.
i've managed to take quite a number of shots of her! and she dont like photos - accomplishment :D

jess refuses to say anything because she claims that silence is the true test of a friendship.
which i am inclined to believe, in certain circumstances.
she's currently doing her econs assignment, while im doing global pol - SIGH poor us. haha okay actually we've been talking more but oh wellll

this is actually just to say im alive since i havent updated in like forever.

anyway we're off to get frolick now!

(:

so no one told you life was gonna be this way
your job's a joke you're broke
your love life's D.O.A
it's like you're always stuck in second gear
when it hasnt been nyour day your week your month
or even your year

but

i'll be there for you
(when the rain starts to pour)
i'll be there fore you
(like i've been there before)
i'll be there for you
cos you're there for me too

just because FRIENDS is the best -
in all sense of the sentence (:

<3

2008-09-08T22:18:00.004+10:00

going back to the corner
where i first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping back
im not gonna move

i should be doing more productive things other than blogging seeing as how i have 2 mega assignments due in 7days.

sometimes, well actually most times especially in tutes, i find myself zoning out and my mind just wanders. it's not a good thing, but it's not necessarily a bad thing either.
the battlefield of the mind.

it's easy to fall back into the past, fall back into old patterns. of behaviours, of thinking, of feeling. but it's times like these we have to make a stand.
to stop running away, stop avoiding and acknowledge it, and deal with it.
clearly, im still learning this - but God is faithful,
and i know my God mighty to save.

which brings me to a quote that used to be frequently passed around in MG:
dont focus on how big your problem is
instead

focus on how big your God is!

(:

i just want You, Jesus

i just want You, my Lord

OMG "jon the freak" (quote lydia haha) let weiying and me see this vid on youtube!! it's FLIPPING FUNNYYYYY!!! seriously, i think i laughed at it for 15mins straight - well, cos he was replaying it like 10times. hahhaha!

okay go to youtube,

and type in "sneezing panda"

THEN WATCH IT!!

hahahahaha

debs loves spring (: says:
hahaha im flipping laughing to myself in my room la!!
peako was lost and you saved Him says:
oh my lord (ng, 2008)
peako was lost and you saved Him says:
sorry sorry
peako was lost and you saved Him says:
(lim, 2008 cited in ng, 2008)

hahaha

more evidence on how education ruins the mind and infiltrates every area of our lives. even msn convos cannot escape.

(apparently, south lawn has become my second home. haha.)

because it's spring, and the sun is out (:

2008-09-05T02:16:00.009+10:00

so it's 2.18am now

and im awake

...listening to abba songs and doing my critical thinking assignment.

haha old school.

everytime i think about abba i have this dusty memory.. of my dad and me in his olddd car last time long ago. we were going to pick up my mum, sis and brother from a swimming/tennis complex - cant really rmb what now. and he was in his "let's revive abba!" phase so he was playing the cd over and over again, singing along at the top of his lungs with his very (oddly) endearing out of tune voice.

i think, that's the very first time i ever started being drawn to music.

after that, we'd sing along to abba, michael learns to rock, or some kids Christian cds that my mum would get for us, or specially for kids albums with songs about mash potatoes and parents having to count to 3 before kids would do as they're told.

i miss my family.

to the 2 most adorable kids (well, both of you arent really kids anymore hey haha) on the planet!

no matter what, im just a phonecall/sms away. i know you guys are really busy, but must take time to rest okay! during the hols when everything's less crazy and we all have more time, we can do our fun lunches/shopping/ice-cream splurges again :D

jiejie loves you SO much!

see you guys in 3weeks3days (:

2008-09-01T23:05:00.005+10:00

HELLO!!

haha im really quite an unfaithful blogger hey.
really must learn how to lock this thing. or some entries. someone, help? haha

well, im going to crash soon (amazingly, before mn!) but before i do, just wanted to let everyone know that im still alive and well heh (:

just finished my first major assignment - global pol essay! hope it went okay.. slept at 7am this morning.
was in the library(yes, i have changed i no longer hate it. well. actually it's the only place i can go since starbucks closed and lygon court is how dodgy. haha) doing research and writing - and jon comes and types this in my essay draft:

Liberal democracy – a form of democracy where things are either liberal, liberated or in the statue of liberty (Tan 2008). This is definitely in no way a form of bullshit as countless studies and research projects have been conducted on the subject to in efforts to liberate democracy from the chains of liberal democracy. Furthermore, these standards of liberalism are not bound to the laws of democracy, that is saying that liberty is in fact not the choice of the public, but the choice of democratic liberalist.

hahaha full of rubbish.
so i woke up at 1 to go for tute, where my tutor confuses me with grace! HAHA. i practically didnt have to talk at all, while poor grace had to keep answering questions! :D
but seriously, we dont look alike at all. she has long hair, my hair's still fairly short. i wear glasses, she dosnt. our cardis were totally different. sheeeesh. strange it is

anyway!

planetshakers just had our very first morning service on sunday!
:D
it was off the dial!!
acoustic, live album recording (:
all your favourites - even stuff way back from the first album ever!
and 'reflector' during third service was sweet as.
so cant wait for the album to come out!!!

I <3 MY URBS (:

we can make a change.
absolutely!

okay it's nearing my bedtime!

just to end off, a conversation from the other day -

“i think in heaven there will be shopping and all the mimco bags will be on sale. and i can eat whatever i want and not grow fat. and i’ll have the nicest complexion. and i’ll go fishing and eat it live! and patrick will be a real dog. and your room will be next to mine so i can pinch your cheeks!”
“what makes you think im getting just a room in heaven?”

haha <3

nighto (:

2008-08-22T23:57:00.005+10:00

You have never changed
Your love is endless
and Your mercy has remained
through all the ages
You shine so bright

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nothing can compare
You made the heavens
and Your glory fills the air
through all the ages
You ride the ancient skies
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and You ride the ancient skies
You’re amazing
creation cries
so will i
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now we stand amazed
and now we sing the word they sang in ancient days
a single word that’s overflowing endless praise

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Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

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(picture from South Africa -
! i'm a pirate, you're a princess says:
'credits to clari, my most amazingest friend')
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despite everything
You are God
and we will praise
cos our trust is in You
and You alone

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<3

2008-08-20T01:32:00.003+10:00

so what can i say?

and what can i do?

but offer this heart, oh God

completely to You

i'll stand

with arms high and heart abandoned

in awe

of the One who gave it all

i'll stand

my soul Lord to You surrendered

all i am

is Yours