Saturday, October 25, 2008


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baby, baby, baby
when all your love is gone
who will save me from all im up against
out in this world
maybe, maybe, maybe
you'll find something that's enough to keep you
but if the bright lights dont deceive you
you should turn yourself around
and come on home

cos sometimes all it takes is one person
and just a bit of re-focussing
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i rmb the first time i heard this song was when i was trying to learn it for a performance in MG - i think it was our national day performance! those were some cool times man. i reckon even though i was never outstanding academically, never really involved in any cca, and never involved in any area of leadership - it was because of all that, which made secondary(high) school life that much more interesting.
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i really miss the MG days; they were such a massive part of how i became who i am today. and i always always look back in fondness at the memories that have been made. im glad that God put me there, despite my initial reluctance to attend MG. the values, the culture/atmosphere, the warm/loving/family environment that some might label as idealistic and protected have shaped me and are a big part of me even now.
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a realistic-idealist.
if i had to define what sort of person i am, that'd be it. sometimes, i admit, i take on an idealistic view of the world - choosing to believe that people are inherently good. that we are all intrinsically altruistic, and that circumstances happen along the way that alter that. but i know that it's not like that all the time, my head's still firmly on my shoulders. i know that disappoints and hurts are part of life as well, and that they cant be avoided no matter what. but i reckon there's always a reason they happen, and it's up to us to choose to bounce back [of course, being Christians we have the added advantage of our Daddy God helping us (:].
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i was watching FRIENDS ytd night, and there was this conversation that went on between joey and phoebe, and i thought it was intriguing! (see, FRIENDS is stimulating heh :D) -

joey: look, there's no unselfish good deed - sorry.
phoebe: yes there are! there are totally good deeds that are selfless.
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joey: all people are selfish.
phoebe: are you calling me selfish?
joey: are you calling you.. people? yeah, sorry to burst that bubble phoebs, but selfless good deeds dont exist.
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and the argument was that because people end up feeling good about themselves at the end of the good deed, it's fundamentally selfish.
BUTTTTT, i sorely beg to differ
was having this conversation with a friend today and we came to the conclusion that -
good deeds are not selfish. because the primary motivation of the person doing the good deed is not to feel good about themselves, but really for the advantage of the person they're helping. the feeling good is simply a "side-effect" (for lack of a better word).
HOWEVER we did make an interesting discovery though. let's say good deeds Are selfish and they're really done to make one feel better about oneself. then wouldnt everyone in the world be going out and doing heaps of good deeds to feel good? now, would that really be a bad thing? i dont think so! haha you'd see so many old people being helped to cross the street and adults buying lollies for kiddies
but i digress
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yeah so i guess, there has to be a middle ground that exists. we cant be cynical and jaded because then there'd be no more hope, no more dreams, and love would struggle to exist. neither can we have our heads up in the clouds, cos then we'd smack our heads on reality one day and just be completely crushed.
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ehh how the heck did i get into this..
haha ANYWAYYYY
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im no longer with alvin's camera - not to say im not interested in photography though! just that i reckon i dont really have a flair for it.. haha sadly. i reckon it needs passion, but for me it's more of just a hobby. ah well, i'll still fiddle with one of the cameras around though! they're not in short supply anyway haha
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i like photos which distort lights, like the one at the top
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let me light up the sky
light it up for you
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for all my rambling, at the end of the day it's about hope.
whether you're a realist, a cynic, an idealist, or still searching. we're all looking for someone to trust. someone who'll hold on to us when we feel like we cant hold on anymore, someone to take away the hurt, someone who'll love us no matter what.
and i choose to put hope in the One
who never disappoints,
who never lets me go,
who always knows what's best for me,
who knows exactly what to say and when to say it, and
who loves me more than i'll ever understand.
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at the end of the day,
He's the reason that i can love, that i can hope, that there's a perpetual silver lining no matter how dark the clouds are (:
and honestly, after finding this nothing else matters but Jesus
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it's all about Jesus
it's all about the way He changed our live
it's all about Jesus
the power of His blood cant be denied
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thank You for saving me (:
thank You for the love You give unconditionally, the freedom You give, and for always always being there for me.
You are all i need,
i love You!
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<3

DeBoRaH @ 1:31 AM

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