Friday, June 16, 2006

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

it's june! and the holidays! well what's left of the hols anyway. i've just been wasting away man. well i havent been studying. while everyone has.. or is trying to start.. hmm. i really dont want this year to end. random thought, but yeah. isnt it nice to be able to wake up and know what's about to happen? i guess you can call it monotony, but this kind of stability is.. reassuring too isnt it? ahh. i think my parents've placed a booking on palmerston already. it's this hostel-ish place in melbourne. where i think im gonna stay. to get ready for next year. last year this time i could still say: ''yeah maybe we'll go to (some place) next year instead of this year'' but i can't do that this year.! stupid example but it's true! that thought really freaks me out. im scared of the dark! and of thunder! and lightning! how to stay by myself for goodness sake. yes many people ask that and honestly i really dont know. anyway.
i dont wanna think. i feel so messy. why? dunno.

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall down your face
The taste is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is easiest when I am around you

So bottle up old love
And throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
A year has past
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Waiting, day it goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is
Tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer

So bottle up old love
And throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
A year has past
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Summer time, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I to the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me

from the book "Orange Girl": sometimes it's worse for us human beings to lose something dear to us than never to have had it at all

waste//

later.