Tuesday, November 29, 2005

in kindergarten
your idea of a good friend
was the person who let you have
the red crayon
when all that was left
was the ugly black one

in primary 1
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
went to the washroom with you
and held your hand
as you walked through the scary halls

in primary 2
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
helped you stand up
to the class bully

in primary 3
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
shared their lunch with you
when you forgot yours
and left it on the bus

in primary 4
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
let you copy the social studies homework
that you forgotten to do
the previous night

in primary 5
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
saved a seat
on the back of the bus
for you

in primary 6
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
comforted you
and lent their shoulder to you
when you
received your PSLE results

in secondary 1
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
helped you to
pass the ''love letter'' to your crush

in secondary 2
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
comforted you
when you broke up with your boy/girl friend
saying that the person
is not even worth of
your tears

in secondary 3
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
would come over to your house
and help you decide
on which clothes to wear on
your first date
although she had her date waiting for her

in secondary 4
your idea of a good friend
was the person who
would help you
in the "O" levels' examination
when you had chicken pox
and on the examination day
you recovered
but
your friend had the disease
and had to stay home for a week


will you be my friend?
who shares
the good, along with the bad

will you be my friend?
who will run next to me in this rat race
holding my hand in scary times
giving support in darker areas of life

will you be my friend?
who will protect\defend at all costs
and stand by me
as i face the seemingly gigantic obstacles of life

will you be my friend?
coming up with solutions
to battle any negative situations
and turn them around
even if it means a sacrifice

will you be my friend?
that wont judge
but offers a helping hand in difficult times

will you be my friend?
who wont ever forget me
giving me that warm, fuzzy feeling inside
a sense of security
saving and sharing the best

will you be my friend?
ever-willing to give me
a shoulder to cry on
a listening ear
a comforting hug
or just someone to lean on

will you be my friend?
to spread the love around
and not mind my crazy antics

will you be my friend?
the one who's able to sense when something's not right
just being there with me in those times
speaking words of love and encouragement

will you be my friend?
who can help me in the important decisions in life
who's not afraid of sacrifice
who is present whenever i need you
though not necessarily whenever i want you

will you be my friend?
the one who'll help unconditionally
who follows up in actions and deeds
and not speak empty words and promises
the one i'll be able to count on
who risks it all

***
im sorry im in one of my uhh.. moods.. probably due to the fact that i'll be leaving for melbourne in 4 days and counting
i know it's still some way off
but this just makes it all seem so..
real
so.. i dont know, fixed and confirmed
thing is, im not sure myself if it's the right thing to do
sure i've heard from my parents
and yeah i trust them
it's just, i need to know
for myself
y'know?
it's so soon.
we're already sec4 in just..
one month

that day i was just staring out into sea (cos i was at my grandpa's birthday dinner which was by the seaside) so yeah
anyway the sea has this really calming effect..
like you see the waves lapping up onto the shore
and the gentle sea-breeze
and it was at night and there was a band playing
then my mind started wandering
but of course being me
i got distracted
so i began to go through old texts
and pics that i'd taken with my phone
it was so strange
there was this feeling of happiness and sadness at the same time
longing
fear
nostalgia
i dont know
it's almost the same as whenever i think of going to Summer School\Trinity.
i have no idea why im so scared
i mean, i probably have a vague idea
but new things arent uncommon to me
i've been to 5 primary schools so yeh.
still.
okay whatever i refuse to think about this anymore

on another note

vbc's over =(
i miss all the little kiddies!!
they are SO ADORABLE
seriously
haha (:
they'll be clinging on and 'deborah jiejie' here and there
demanding for more stickers
asking about boyfriends every few minutes
yanking me around to roast marshmallows for them
jumping onto my back for piggyback rides
sitting on my lap
tickling me
AHHH
I DONT CARE IM GOING TO BE AN A.ADVISOR NEXT YEAR AGAIN!
(:
such fun
good times good times
but of course nothing is pure white
certain issues have come to light
and i've realised a good many things
but i shant disclose what here
then again, good has come out of it as well
nights on the swing
at the carpark hiding
walking around church
leaning over the parapet looking down at them
just talking
in certain cases laughing nonstop
for absolutely no reason at all
almost like old times again eh (:
i missed them and im glad we had the chance again (:

two fantastic camps have passed
one month has gone by (or almost)
only one month more
make the most of it yes
(: =\ ): (:

_____________________

You changed my world
When You came to me.
You drove a passion,
In my soul down deep,
Lord, to follow You in everything.

I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there,
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie.
And I don't want to walk that road,
Be a million miles from home,
Cause my heart needs to be where You are.
So I don't want to go.

So come whatever,
(Whatever may come)
I'll stick with You.
(Right by Your side)
I'll walk You'll lead me,
Call me crazy or a fool,
For forever I promise You...

That I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there,
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie.
And I don't want to walk that road,
Be a million miles from home,
Cause my heart needs to be where You are.
So I don't want to go

Without Your touch,
Without Your love
Filling me like an ocean.
For Your grace is enough,
Enough for me.

Never want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there.
No, no, no, no.

I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there,
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie.
And I don't want to walk that road,
Be a million miles from home,
Cause my heart needs to be right where You are.
So I don't want to go. No, no.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
Without Your touch,
Without Your love
Filling me like an ocean.
Your grace is enough,
I don't want to go.
I don't want to go somewhere,
If I know that You're not there.
I don't want to be there without You.
Without your touch,
(I don't want to go somewhere,)
Without you love
(If I know that You're not there.
I don't want to be there without You.)
I don't want to go. No, no.
(I don't want to go somewhere,
If I know that You're not there.
I don't want to be there without You.)
If You're not there.
Filling me, loving me.
I don't want to go.
Don't want to go.
(Don't want to go, don't want to go there without you.)
There without you.
(Don't want to go)
Don't want to be
(Don't want to go, don't want to go)
There without you.
(There without you.)

>>byeee`