Friday, August 26, 2005

4 letters: T.G.I.F
'nuff said man.

okay no no i'm not gonna be lazy and just stop there.. hmm just a random thought though- this time last week, we'd be prepping for Love MG.. ahh :( i miss it. still. pfft. feels like i havent played the drums in ages though the last time was just on Sunday. haha drum-overdose last week man.
i like quiet moments with just one or two friends when you just sit around doing something or other but all connected in some way.. okay sorry random

well certainly can't say that life's been boring in any way.
oh yeah and remember my that resolution to get all my A1s back? hah. pfft. not working. im screwing up everything. seriously. on my prc, it's gonna say: physics F9. bio F9. chem F9. ss/history B4. chinese B4. lit B3. like only my english and maths are something of.. acceptable. im barely able to keep up in class. and EOYs are coming soon. argh i need to buck up! how. if an opening comes up for me to drop bio.. well. i can't believe i failed all my sciences. gosh. gahh.. next tuesday's gonna be my triple-chem-retest. oh man.
anyway..
went for training today. the station thing wasnt that bad really.. actually some were actually quite fun(: the choochootrain said that it'd be intensive from after our exams on cos there'll be selections next year. pfft yeah like there'll be any chance at all that i'll be picked. oh well.. still gotta/gonna do my.. hmm. just exactly how do you know you're putting it your best? i really can't tell. is there really a measure?

on another note..
i've received my reply for the Trinity College's Creative Thinking Summer School. i'm accepted.
but do i really wanna go? actually i know the answer. it's just.. i know that by going i'll almost confirmed be accepted into the College after sec4.. but it's just all so soon. 3rd-16th dec. but my parents really want me to go.. but isnt it like i'm rushing off already. i mean not technically but yeah i dunno.
this will definitely be a.. huge step. i mean all my life.. i'm one of those you can classify under 'really protected and sheltered by parents'..
the UK trip was an eye-opener but i knew the people around me; like i had people to guide me along if i was blur(which i was and probably will be), friends to talk and laugh with that i didnt have to start getting to know from scratch and everything was pre-prepared and arranged already.
this one is really different. no one to sit with on the plane [that i know of anyway].. gotta meet new people, make new friends.. maybe it's cos i havent been out of my comfort zone for so long. when i go it's definitely gonna force me to be more independent.. whether i wanna or not.
i guess i know we all have to grow up at one time or another, and that change is inevitable.. but i really don't wanna. i know it's all in His hands and i'll never go wrong as long as i do what He's telling me to.. but what if i can't let go.
some weeks ago i just had a realisation that next year 2006 will be like the kind of last year i spend in singapore. i mean after that i'll be away most of the time in melb studying. for about what. 5years? =1 year. 52 weeks. 365 days. 8760 hours. 525 600 minutes.
but no matter what, i know He's always there. im really so thankful i've got that One Friend. my Best Friend. the only One that doesnt expect anything from me, the One who i can truly be free with, the One who loves me so much and finally, the One that will be with me wherever i go. so, the only thing i can do? PRAY.
and keep believing and trusting. right? yeap. (:

okay i'm sorry for boring all those who.. uhm actually read these entries. just needed an outlet. heh. alright i gotta do my tuition hw now! byebye =)

>>bye`