Tuesday, May 17, 2005

well now just waiting for the survivor reunion to start.. yeah.. not much going on nowadays.. post exam activites as usual.. sigh just give us class time or smth for goodness sake. hmm. i rmb last time in like.. p3 or smth when i was still in haig girls and the computer wasnt such a big thing.. my mom had to literally force me onto the com. i didn't like to get on it.. cos.. well it was new and it was such a big thing to me. then. haha.. yeah so she had to make me get on it and to check that i was actually surfing the net and not doing some weird thing like.. playing solitaire or smth she'd make me check out different websites and report on them. i rmb some weird pink dolphin website i always used to go to.. haha so weird.. bet she regrets it now
today we did some weird personality quiz thing- oh after listening to some battery talk. my goodness it was pathetic. seriously. the guy up there speaking is in serious need of some PR classes. gosh.! he was so.. unaware that everyone was laughing at him not with him.. and it was so bad that prefects were stationed all around. gosh felt so embarrassed for him. anyway i digress. so the character quiz thingamajig. im an 'S'! haha actually pretty happy about it. im sociable and prefer giving way than conflicts and will lose in any argument with ms apple. haha a 'D', esp when under pressure. hmm actually i've kind of known those stuff about myself.. due to the talks i have with mom.. but well to have a computer and a guy whom you have never met before tell you these things.. yeah it was pretty freaky. for instance, just by looking at the graphs, he could tell me that i am a procrastinater when i get pressurized (which i am) but i still get work done minus some details (which is totally true) because i'm competent up to a certain level and wanna get things done right (which is completely me). yeah how cool is that? haha but i think i need to work on certain things? so that my focus in those.. certain areas will not be do great. cos i mean.. what importance do those things carry really. they're just materialistic whims that we.. okay i carry now because.. hmm. well i guess cos its wad seems impt in school now. but it'll be over in just.. what, 1.5years frm now.. there's really no point.. but at the same time its easier said than done isnt it. all these little things still affect us and no matter how hard we try not to let it, it will. cos well i guess we're.. i'm just built that way. and the only thing left to do is to turn to Him. cos He has been, is and will always be there for me. no matter how many times i fail, i dont have to do stupid things to get His attention or get Him to love me. cos He already does from the start of it all.

not because of who i am
but because of what You've done
not because of what i've done
but because of who You are

i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapour in the wind
still You hear me when i'm calling
Lord You catch me when i'm falling
You told me who i am
i am Yours

whom shall i fear?
whom shall i fear?
i am Yours
i am Yours.

i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

>>byeee`