Tuesday, August 31, 2004

gah. its so weird how d same person can b feeling 2 extremeties at 2 points in d same day. i suddenly haf d urge to blog. dunno y. im sori if i sound self-pitying but i need to rite dis somewhere n my diary is currently locked up in a drawer wif some other stuff n i can't open d drawer becos i lost d key. gah yes but anyway. i feel so lost sometimes.. lyk dis person's hu's hardly, no, never d leader, always d follower. i dno. mayb its some weird quality tt i dun haf/haf. i feel lyk im losing out? mayb im jus being sensitive. but i dont think so? m i boring? uninteresting? ignorant? freakish? wat?? i dont get it! ever get d feeling where u try n try harder den u try ur hardest but u still don't get wat u want? others can hardly try at all n get everything u ever wanted.. y isit so hard to trust ppl too?? how come everyone's always comparing.?? gah. jus wanna haf ____ _______ to pass life n to b _____ to.. is tt so much to ask? sometimes i can hardly talk to ppl. gah... myb im jus b-o-r-i-n-g.. i dunno i dunno i dunno.. im sorry. i noe many ppl haf got it worse off den me but i jus needed to get it off me. im sorry. =getting out of d pool of self-pity= to aLL my frens: love ya loads. i may not show? but yeah.. i luff all of yall.. ::rmb all d good things in life::

-=till later=-